Time... My Best Friend.. What I've Been Waiting For..

Well... I got the call I've been waiting for... for the last three months plus... I finally got it... Boy was it so many mixed emotions... Things have changed, big changes.. but it was like I didn't care.. Excitement, anger, shock, hatred, betrayal, happiness, joy, warm fuzzies.. Wow... can a person feel all of those at once...? But they all died down and became a few feelings... calmness, at ease, understanding... and the big one... the rekindlement of love... Only a few weeks ago, I used to tell myself that love had nothing to do with anything... love was only a part of the big picture, but now I'm seeing the real true power of love... true love... what a beautiful thing.. it does exist.. How can one octave of a person's voice make a small flame and make it into an engulfing fire, it's amazing. Now, God, I pray to you that you lead me in the way that you deem necessary.. guide me in the path to which you would want me to go and help me understand all of this... I feel like a new path in my life is being made... I'm excited to be able to find out if I'll be able to see the new scenery..

Why?

Let me start off by saying sorry that I've been neglecting my blog lately... I've been busy working on other projects, etc. But I'm going to start this one off by saying why must this whole "courting" thing be such a game. I don't know why, but I don't like it...

Anyways, on other news... I did a sad thing a few nights ago... I wrote a hand-written letter. Yeah, I know this is 2005 and emailing is quicker, but it was something I've been wanting to do for a while, so I made a stab at it. It ended up being three pages long, but it gave me a sense of closure... a feeling that I didn't want have. Then there is my mom asking if I heard from her. It's enough to make you go crazy. So, yet in still, I continue on on this journey in life, peeping behind every bush and checking every nook and cranny so I won't be sure I forgot anything. This entry is every where right about now.. but that's enough for now.. I'm off to do a remix to "Set It Off" by Young Gunz... R.O.C.... Roca-Fella ya'll..

BWright

By the way, I got my LiveStrong bracelets today that I bought on EBay.. I miss you Aunt Silvia, Rest In Peace..

The Eye Opener

Wow... What a weekend... That's all I can say... I'm still wowed... :-) Anyways, I took the journey down to Essence Festival 2005 (Yeah, it's been a while, since 2002).. but from now on, I'll be there!! I had the greatest time.. saw and met a lot of celebs.. and pictures will be up on my picture site soon... It was also an eye opener!

Let's see.. I saw Baby from Cash Money outside of the W... he was cool, taking pictures and talking to people, telling them where to go and stuff... then I saw R. Hamilton from the Detroit Pistons.. he was on Bourbon chillin'... I saw 2 of the 4 women from Girlfriends... WOW.. :-) Then I met TQ up on Decatur Street when I got out of the House of Blues... In the HOB, I saw Trina and Freeway (It's the ROC!)... Trina is the baddest... case closed.. Umm... and I met/saw so many other people... I even saw people I haven't seen in years... people from my list serv, etc.. It was bananas.. :-) B-A-N-A-N-A-S... Now back to reality ! This weekend I'll be at home in Warner Robins, so that'll be cool.. get to see my little brother and stuff.. his b-day is next Tuesday.. Happy B-Day B!!

BWright